We all have some embarrassing childhood experiences but is any as embarrassing as this?

children are always in awe of their parents and grandparents no matter what they do. as for what your grandfather did, it was his personal choice and his way of life. abusing him will not do you any good and neither will reflecting upon that incident as it was all in good faith. you did nothing wrong and should not take it a negative light. just remember one thing children are innocent and pure at heart. you meant no harm to anyone and your present day mindset also reflects the same. just relax and forget the past. i know it can be hard to let go but its only for the best and you must try.